[15:27] Q: its 420 tday
[15:27] Q: and we're definitely all baked whether we liek it or not
[15:27] Q: and we're definitely all baked whether we liek it or not
Lolz!!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
new addiction... and other stuff
There's a website I'm addicted to in addition to www.fmylife.com. It's a blog about relationships. See it here: www.datingish.com. A lot of the posts are really insightful and make you think. Some posts are funny. Like this one about a girl accidentally losing her virginity: http://www.datingish.com/698867336/somy-friend-accidentally-lost-her-virginity/. Most of the people who write on this site are college and high school aged. I usually try to stay away from the ones I think are written by high schoolers because I really don't think I can learn anything from them. I like reading this blog so much because they cover a wealth of topics that come up during relationships, from the awkward "friends or something more?" stage (http://www.datingish.com/698949727/dear-dr-datingish-can-you-be-close-friends-who-cuddle/) to the the "sitting on the couch in sweats watching TV" stage (http://www.datingish.com/698578568/date-nights-become-nonexistent-in-long-relationships/) and they're usually pretty relatable. And if they aren't relatable, I like reading people's experiences. So check it out! My favorite blogger is Miss Ostrich: http://www.datingish.com/tags/authormissostrich/.
Next week will be a fun filled week. On Wednesday is the Britney Spears concert (excited!), Thursday is community service day at work (I'm going to help clean up a park), and on Friday I leave for SoCal for the weekend! I get to see my babe and my family, who I haven't see since Christmas.
I talked to Erik about how I feel about long distance. He told me to do whatever makes me happy. If being in SoCal will make me happier, then I should just do it. Though I think he may be a bit biased because that means he'll be closer to me. Long distance is hard on the both of us. I also told him about how I liked my job, but I get lonely up here and didn't know what I should do. He said my happiness may be more important than the job, but he did recognize that I might regret leaving the job if my new job ends up sucking. So he said, maybe if I stayed at my job for 2 more years until he graduates and he finds a good job, I can move in with him in SoCal and can work at whatever job I want while he supports me (because I have a feeling the jobs in LA won't pay me as much as the job I have now -- there are mostly start ups, small companies, or academic research jobs). Moving in together is a HUGE deal. I felt really touched that he was thinking that far into the future. I know I shouldn't think so much into it now since it's 2 years away, but the thought of living with him excites me and scares me. It would be wonderful to have him everyday, waking up together, going to sleep together, making meals together. But doesn't this sort of thing usually leady to marriage? (Eeep!) Or possibly worse, non-marriage? (See the movie "He's Just Not That Into You." Jennifer Aniston's character lives with her boyfriend for 7 years and keeps hoping for him to propose, but he's too comfortable with the way things are and sees no need to get married.) I do see him in my future and I hope he does end up being the One. But I'm not going to be naive and say that he is at this moment. I think life would be great to live with him. But how long would it last? What if we get sick of each other and break up? Wouldn't that be the most awkward thing if we lived together? (See another Jennifer Aniston movie, "The Break Up".) And would my family disown me? (Lol... conservative family....) I guess all these thoughts are valid fears when make a big decision like moving in with a significant other. But I don't need to dwell on these for another 2 years (if we are still together by then).
Next week will be a fun filled week. On Wednesday is the Britney Spears concert (excited!), Thursday is community service day at work (I'm going to help clean up a park), and on Friday I leave for SoCal for the weekend! I get to see my babe and my family, who I haven't see since Christmas.
I talked to Erik about how I feel about long distance. He told me to do whatever makes me happy. If being in SoCal will make me happier, then I should just do it. Though I think he may be a bit biased because that means he'll be closer to me. Long distance is hard on the both of us. I also told him about how I liked my job, but I get lonely up here and didn't know what I should do. He said my happiness may be more important than the job, but he did recognize that I might regret leaving the job if my new job ends up sucking. So he said, maybe if I stayed at my job for 2 more years until he graduates and he finds a good job, I can move in with him in SoCal and can work at whatever job I want while he supports me (because I have a feeling the jobs in LA won't pay me as much as the job I have now -- there are mostly start ups, small companies, or academic research jobs). Moving in together is a HUGE deal. I felt really touched that he was thinking that far into the future. I know I shouldn't think so much into it now since it's 2 years away, but the thought of living with him excites me and scares me. It would be wonderful to have him everyday, waking up together, going to sleep together, making meals together. But doesn't this sort of thing usually leady to marriage? (Eeep!) Or possibly worse, non-marriage? (See the movie "He's Just Not That Into You." Jennifer Aniston's character lives with her boyfriend for 7 years and keeps hoping for him to propose, but he's too comfortable with the way things are and sees no need to get married.) I do see him in my future and I hope he does end up being the One. But I'm not going to be naive and say that he is at this moment. I think life would be great to live with him. But how long would it last? What if we get sick of each other and break up? Wouldn't that be the most awkward thing if we lived together? (See another Jennifer Aniston movie, "The Break Up".) And would my family disown me? (Lol... conservative family....) I guess all these thoughts are valid fears when make a big decision like moving in with a significant other. But I don't need to dwell on these for another 2 years (if we are still together by then).
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
long distance.........
Long distance is hard. This is the second year that my boyfriend and I are in one. But I think it's harder on me as it is for him. Last year, we were both in school, so we were both very busy studying, doing hw, etc. Now, I'm graduated and working while he's still a student. So now I come home to all this free time that I could be spending with him, but can't. Meanwhile, he's away at school, studying, meeting new people, keeping himself occupied. He can get his mind off missing me with all the stuff he needs to do. But for me, I've got all this free time to miss him. It's so hard not having him here physically. My roommate has a boyfriend who is over all the time, and I envy them. It's not fair. I never wanted to be in a long distance relationship. I almost didn't date him because I knew he would be transferring to another school and it may be far away. But I fell in love and couldn't say no. He's got two more years left. I don't know if I can last another 2 years. I'm barely making it through this year, and he's only been away since Jan (he took fall quarter off). Maybe I just need to give it more time. He was here for so long that I have to get used to being in long distance again, and I remember the beginning was really rough last time So it's like starting over again. Maybe after a while, I won't miss him so much. I feel like it's different this time, though. The difference being that I am now a working woman and he is a student. I want to do things. I want to go exploring, go on adventures, do random things. And I want to do them with him. But the distance makes that impossible. I don't know, sometimes I feel like my young adulthood is wasting away.... But what am I supposed to do? I love him. I am not getting what I want or need out of this relationship. But would it be worse to not be in a relationship at all? I can't just say I don't want to be with you anymore because you can't be here physically... the feelings will still be there. But I don't feel complete. I feel like I'm not enjoying life as I should be as a young adult, new graduate, working my first job, starting my career.
Moving to SoCal is an option. I have been thinking seriously about this. Not just for him, but for my family too. I feel like I'm missing out on a lot of things going on with my family. But I enjoy the job I have right now (in biotech) and I really feel like I will gain a lot out of it. I feel like I can really grow at this job, even though it's my first job. I like my coworkers and I like my boss. The location is just right, the opportunities for growth are there... And even if I don't stay with the company, there are a wealth of jobs I can get elsewhere in the Bay Area. SoCal will not have as many jobs for me (unless I move to San Diego...). What will make me more happy in the end? Fufilling my career or fufilling my love life?
Moving to SoCal is an option. I have been thinking seriously about this. Not just for him, but for my family too. I feel like I'm missing out on a lot of things going on with my family. But I enjoy the job I have right now (in biotech) and I really feel like I will gain a lot out of it. I feel like I can really grow at this job, even though it's my first job. I like my coworkers and I like my boss. The location is just right, the opportunities for growth are there... And even if I don't stay with the company, there are a wealth of jobs I can get elsewhere in the Bay Area. SoCal will not have as many jobs for me (unless I move to San Diego...). What will make me more happy in the end? Fufilling my career or fufilling my love life?
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